It's a different feeling writing with no comments from supportive readers. Back to the days when my words were only between me and God.
I've kept a diary since I was a young girl. I have hand written journals, and starting a couple years ago, I switched to the computer. Pages and pages of feelings, prayers and observations. All of that was private by choice. And in fact, most of it was written directly to God and I only asked that He heard. And that He responded if He felt so moved.
My blog, however is different. I started it with the intention of making public my feelings, struggles and victories in order to help others facing monumental life change. I am inspired to keep going because of the feedback I received from readers. I read all of that feedback this morning as I deleted my posts one by one from my referral site. I reflected on the feedback as I made private each blog entry I've made. I did this to protect my children. Our lives are not settled. I cannot risk anything that would be used to keep us apart more than we already are. I hope to someday be able to allow the public to read and be encouraged by my thoughts, but for now I write in the dark.
