It's New Year's Eve.
We've arrived later than expected home from a road trip. Plans to go out have been scrapped. The evening was spent cuddling around a fire, chatting about our great year to come and.... well, you know what?... That's a lie! We don't have a fireplace and our evening was really spent exchanging angry words, raised voices and tears. I chalk it up to way too much time in the car and no sleep!
Tinies in bed, I'm left to alone to calm down. We have finally climbed off the holiday roller coaster and can look forward to 2013.
And that's what I am thinking about tonight. To what in this next year am I looking forward?
I look forward to the promise of a steady rhythm of routine in work, preschool, church and home.
I look forward to solidifying new friendships I've made and sowing into old friendships I've kept.
I look forward to saying "no." "No" to being defined by my past actions or circumstances. "No" to believing that mistakes I make in 2013 will be detrimental and damaging and that there is no forgiveness, grace or healing associated with them. "No" to the inner voice in my head that taunts me at times with my failures and inadequacies. "No" to unhealthy relationships.
I look forward to saying "yes." "Yes" I want to try that new activity, that new food, that new travel destination, that new (OK, fill in the blank with whatever right here) "Yes" I do still find joy in almost every single situation. "Yes" I am grateful for my everything. "Yes" I do still believe that God has my back. "Yes" I can be new every morning. And "yes" it will be a great year.
Happy 2013. Enjoy your year!
