After a post titled No Good Thing...you gotta know how God redeemed my yesterday.
Couldn't sleep, woke up too early to a single songbird and a strong desire to cover my home...anoint every door and window with oil. Did it, done.
Baby went to a babysitter...I will miss her, I miss my daughters too...so far, not so good.
Got in the car...my favorite song was playing.
Got to work, buried my head deep and waded through the mess I left behind yesterday...made tons of mistakes and was granted grace and mercy. Received a text from a friend who just encouraged me and my daughters...for no reason at all.
Received an apology from my ex-husband.
Then heard a song that reminded me of an old friend and we texted back and forth...ending with many I love yous and I miss yous.
Then got home and sat in the front yard with my neighbors/friends who just let me sit, not talk and drink a beer....kids running around, they know I miss mine, so we chat and don't broach any awkward subject. I am grateful.
Then go out with my honest friend. She sets me straight and loves me too.
Today was not easy, but it wasn't horrible. God redeemed the sticky muck left over from yesterday.
And now I look forward to tomorrow...another day with possibility of redemption and a promise that I will get through and still love life. This is what I know: that even though things are raw and funky, I still love life. I really do. I would rather wade through a murky day full of yuck than not be present and in the middle of life. Smack dab in the middle of it.
