Wish I could change myself so I didn't mourn the loss of certain friendships. My husband takes the girls to visit his friends and family, and after two years, I am still hurt and confused that I am not invited! I know I am not invited because I am the EX, I know that his friends and family are not comfortable calling me up and inviting me along, it makes sense. But that doesn't change how I feel.
I try to process the loss by listing it on a piece of paper, by reading the list daily, adding to it, and hopefully someday crossing off the losses that don't hurt me anymore. So far my list is getting longer and I haven't crossed off a single thing. I am still in mourning, I cannot rush this healing.
