As a newlywed, even prior, I dreamed that our marriage would be the one the broke the pattern of divorce in our families. My husband and I tried to do everything right; we dated for a long time, made sure our families approved, made sure we both had strong faith in Jesus. Waited to have children, traveled the world together, embarked on successful careers. Had our own hobbies, had our own lives outside the marriage...the list goes on and on and on.
Whatever we did, did not work. We are in the midst of the divorce. And I am heartbroken for many reasons. One reason is that my dream of breaking the pattern of divorce in our families did not come true.
I heard today from a speaker at church that I am destined to repeat a lifestyle pattern without intervention. This encourages me because I am great at intervention. I surround myself with it everyday. I read books, I go to groups, I make new friends, I rely on old friends, I try to be proactive in every area of my life. Many times I don't feel like showing up, but I do it anyway. Accepting intervention is a lifestyle for me, because I don't want to be the same I was yesterday. No thank you.
Create in me a pure heart, oh God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me. Then I will teach transgressors your ways, and sinners will turn back to you. Psalm 51:10-13 NIV
